-The first wave- One HELLUVA RANTIN POST. (i.e. people get offended )

okay. today's band prac was. to sum it up : _l_

and experienced a scenario where what is desired is beyond ur own capabilities?

i nearly wanted to give it all up. it was simply beyond me. and what she was asking was WAY beyond me. and so the humiliation ensued. i was simply whacking away at the keys, caring not anymore for the notes, the rhythm. it was beyond reason, beyond comprehension. oh here's what she said.

"can u speed up the cadenza even more." - yes i cant do it, its freaking BEYOND MY PHYSICAL CAPABILITIES. (try playing sixtuplets at per crotchet at 132. chords with 4mallets. not ur simple drumstrokes, and changing them every 3 chords. so u can do it. well done, u're a professional.)

"oh it must be faster, or the audience will fall aslp." - if that's the case, only the sleep deprived would buy the prefessional recording by tkyo ksei since there are playing EVEN SLOWER than this.

" go learn your notes please...." -yes i'm partially at fault for not working 10hrs a day on this concerto. but please, most people take at least half a yr to prepare a concerto. and i was given like, 1 and a hlf months? yes i know i just have to deal with it, but srsly, i'm trying my very best not to hit the FREAKING WRONG NOTES.

and one last thing. ur interpretation and my interpretation. who's playing the concerto? you? or me? give me my minimal right to interpret my own part will you as long as its not obstructing the music..

k i know i'm ranting and people will just be calling be an ingrate for not being thankful for being able to play this piece. Yes i am thankful, but i need TIME . SERIOUSLY. TIME!

lets just put it this way.

non-musically. i want you to run 10km in 30min. u didn't make the timing? try again. dint make it? try again. and again. and again. lets see how YOU feel.