if my mind was an open bk, the world would be a much sadder place.

after a high comes a low.

sometimes i really wonder about trust. and how one can only hope to undo the things that one wishes never happened.

1) was leaving the lt but held a door open for 3 chem teachers to let them pass thru first. none of which even glanced at me as they walked past, let alone a simple nod of thanks. so much for role models of basic etiquette of manners.

2) you just had to mention how the other side don't "scold" you. well to put it simply, would u rather a person who scolds you and tell you ur mistakes or would u rather people who smile and act cheery and talk bout u behind your back? it's kinda hurtful that you said that. smile on my face aside, i seriously wanted nothing more to slash back a reply that i knew would have hurt ur feelings. but i learnt to hold my tongue many a time in my sec sch days.

3) you guys think sometimes i'm being fierce, strict and all, but i only wish for the better. when there's time to work we work, time to play we play but it really upsets me when i tell you guys something but nothing shows out.
i expect the best, cause i want to think the best of you guys. i'm happy most of the time, but i just get really upset too.

4) and i'm afraid to tell, once more. things are getting complicated

really jumbled-up thoughts now, no one i can really turn to. great.