Stumbled upon on a friends webpage and she arrived at several quotes.. cute i think hahaha



Quidquid latine dictum sit, altum viditur.
(Whatever is said in Latin sounds profound.)

The real trouble with reality is that there's no background music.

My god carries a hammer. Your god died nailed to a tree. Any questions?

Everyone is entitled to be stupid -- but most abuse the privilege.

Man is God's greatest masterpiece. But who says so? Man.

There cannot be a crisis next week. My schedule is already full.


LOL huh =)


anyway, life's been great =) okay not totally. for one, some people are away =(


oh anyway.

even though i know that promos are coming and all, but the hols really great =).. i mean, no more rushing for sch early in the morning, juz chilling away knowing that i'll get to studying in the end.. ahah but seriously, i got more studying done than in sch lol.. cuz its the really relaxing environment and all so yea =)..


oh well.. promos are coming down yea.. and no one's giving up huh, hw ;)

and yay 4wks to end of promos X)

i know im gonna sound like im a schizophobic, but yea these posts juz took a mood swing bounce back down to the dark.


Got back my 2nd test results since coming back today. no point talking bout it. everyone else got gd.

shit i've no mood to write abt anything anymore.

sigh.


study i guess

okay hahahah friend just sent me this link... lovely piece of thing for organic chem lol




cool eh... :)

oh god.. once again. so much to write abt today.

ok lets c.

1) somehow, my entire family is down with food poisoning. yup. except me... its all happened one day when....
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in long story short, on sunday, i insisted on staying at home to "mug" when mum dad n bro asked me to go out for dinner b4 sending bro to nee soon camp. And they ate this plate of #@%^*@#% fried oyster, which apparently wasnt exactly clean. and there you go. 3 ailing people. (come to think of it, i wouldnt have gotten food poisoning even if i went with them cuz i don't eat oysters, but oh well.. not the pt)

wow.

2) for the first time in my jc life, i skipped a PW lecture =D!!!!!!

lol okay so maybe some of you pple may think nothing bout it but in the jc im in, they get pretty anal when they find out you miss lectures. look at how the teachers zealously check the attendance list daily every lecture and u'll understand..

so me and ma frens stoned away at the library chilling away. (i was reading death note comics online ^.^ )

=)


3) and finally, my asswipe of a friend placed a seriously unglam picture of me munching away on something which was the combination of chewy sweets, bread, kaya, chips, nutella, cheese and jam; on the school library computer's wallpaper. %^#@%**#^$

so i chionged back to the library at the end of the sch to remove it... and i was walking into the library and i saw these grp of girls staring weirdly at me... -.- and i swore they burst out giggling after i walked past.. im so gonna get back at u dude...

4) may sound abit narcisstic and all hahaha but damn i missed p.winds concert and gonna miss hsbc concert zzz... T.T then looking at their commercials on tv and all... argh... feels like im missing out on chances to know more people and play more stuff zzz...

okay so maybe i wasn in for the first concert.. but the latter... sigh... could have been playing in the concert, but i rejected it cause of promos... T.T sigh.. oh well.. its 3days away, no use brooding over it... but i think im gonna burst out bawling if richard tells me they give out free movie money to the performers like they did the previous time... argh!!!!



oh yea and one more thing.. may sound totally unrelated to this post but..

~

u know, life is not about what actually goes about in your life, but from what perspective you look at it.

~

come to think of it, it also depends on which part of life do you focus on: the good stuff or the bad stuff.

yea...


anyway, to end off on a sad note... monday was supposed to be taichi day for my parents, =dota day on the comp... but since mum and dad are sick... sigh..

lol im damn unfillial for thinking that.. banish those thoughts and go serve them hot tea!!!


edit* woots they're going to taichi!! dotadotadota!!! =D
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(i think i've juz editted this post for the sixth time..) cuz an after thought struck me..

lol looking at the content of my blog this few days, my blog skin seems totally out of place hahaha but oh well.. i'll save it for the really down periods lol =)

wow. a timely 150th post.


quite abit of stuff to talk bout.
lets c.

1) sept hols coming in a wks time => study wk i prefer to call it... promos a wk after it. mug yes mug.

2) sat was my couz 21th birthday celebration. aside from the significance of the birthday celebration, it was the first time since chinese new yr that all 9 of us came together. us cousins. we all have changed. every one of us. and our grandma's hse nvr seemed so crowed. it was a darn gratifying feeling. of how we carried on to talk abt anything other the sun. the retarded cam shots we took. how we laughed at really nonsensical stuff. but admst all that, i saw us. 5yrs b4 and now 5yrs ltr. we really have growned alot since then. and the adults were talking bout practically the same things over and over again. 5yrs ago : wa Olvls coming up one by one

now: wa 21th birthdays coming up one by one (2yrs down the rd is 2 21ths, 1 21ths the next, and 3 21ths (me) the yr after.)

oh well. but yea. it felt gd yea.. meeting up after so long. everysingle one of us down differnt paths in life and all.. yet sharing a common bond.


(oh and i realised my couz actual birthdate is coming fri. what a small world.. coincides huh, hw.)

3) loss. distrust. sadness. hate, happiness. jubilation. emotions. and all.. seeing things through another's eyes. hurts just the same, as if i was feeling it myself. yet,

stand strong yea. u.

i marvel at my writing speed.

proved it in econs test today =D

but one cant have the best of both worlds... so my handwriting legibility goes right down the drain. But its legible. i think.


~

alright, so its 4wks to promos. 1wk to teachers day. 3wks to snys concert. 2wks to er... start of revision wk in mj. and ... oh yes 5wks to the END OF PROMOS.


so yes.. much to look forward to, and not...


all the way, comrades!!

down.

screwed up day.

stuff happened.

- saw my classmates leaving sch at 6pm plus. they were studying. i left arnd the same time. i wasnt studying. they weren't exactly full=time muggers. but they were studying. the way things are going, i don't know myself anymore. i wasnt like that. not such an extreme. its time to change. and saying in a hundred times more so wont work. time to stop fooling around and deceiving myself, and the whole world.


- contemplative journey home. thought abt the day's events. saw someone i totally didn know. since when i have became like this? this isnt me anymore. its time to change.
maybe u're right, A. I do sound _________.


- and others. shant talk bout it.


no idea what im doing. no idea at all.

reflect~

dammit.


all the bloody lectures, test, homework catching up with me..


add that to the revision i've been procrastinatin, the freaking promos coming up in 4 and half wks and the dreaded PW.


and add THAT to the 3 concerts coming up.


there u have it.


my life.


sheesh.

pretty ironic huh. 2posts away i was talking bout how i remained "still" in this everyone pissed environment. and the nxt post i was raging away like a beast.


oh well. i guess u cant always bottle it up or let it "flow" thru u. so yea...


life's pretty much... lie life i guess... its ups and downs.. yea... there you go..


nothing's perfect life, nor is life entirely bad. so dun go on bout how life sucks or how life is perfect. life isnt. its juz somewhere in btw. sometimes up and sometimes down.


Thats called spice.

Damn fucking pissed off.


Came back home. asked mum to help me with duplicating keys.

Dad comes by and starts going on bout how its bttr to change a lock instead.

Trivial stuff..

started to raise voice for no reason.

All i wanted was to go to my rm and juz take a break. It's the night u know.

Okay so he stopped after going on abt my attitude of how i always expect them to do things for me. Too tired to argue or what. So i just told him if he feels that way i can do it myself. yada.

Appeased his furious anger after some time.

So now im feeling pissed instead.

Im supposed to be in a semi-slumber mood already, a.k.a. stoning. yet now i'm juz damn frustrated. broke my rest patterns he did.

Now i keep thinking about what i have to do in the upcoming days and all, juz get more and more pissed.

fuck la. fucking moodswings.

- -

(cont:)

okay fuck it, i just swept the entire pile of stuffs on my table on the flr. great, i din c my speaker there.

really fucking dunno why im so fucking pissed. wan nothing better now than to starting destroying stuff. (fuck i know how u feel, hw)

memories and revelations

wow. took part in funfestique badminton today. (callisto)


wont talk bout the results. but the things that happened. interesting. the people that played. interesting types..

Interesting... such an all encompassing word..

anyway, wont talk bout that.

But the main thing is, after 3yrs of not touching the racket, seriously darn rusty, be it technique or what...


i still rmbr the first shuttlecock that went my way today...


"damn it feels gd"

i saw the darn cock.
i felt the memories rushing back.
how to hit it.
exactly.
one lovely shot.
i arched my back.
pulled back my racket.
let it swing.
and i missed
ARGH!

luckily i got pretty much used to hitting the shuttlecock again.. mostly.

but anyway.. besides that... this event really blew me over physically man. been long since i had such a feeling of utter lead on my arms and that sore feeling over my hands. and for the first time since 5ths, i might actually slp b4 10pm... (wow)

so there.. it felt gd...


but thinking back..


i wonder what would have happened if i choosed the path of sports instead of music.
back in the fateful day where i sealed my fate by signing up for concert band as my CCA instead of my primary sch CCA(badminton P1-5/table tennis P5-6)... (wonder what was i thinking anyway.. no prior experience... nada. zilch.)

where would i stand now?

hmm..


interesting.

(come to think of it, what if i was selected for trumpet instead of percussion? note: i was vry close to playing a trumpet... like realll close..)

where would i be today?


hmm..

interesting X)

i have no idea why, but the people around me have a mood thats blacker than my blogskin...


and amazingly i dun even feel that way... at least not now..


maybe im becoming impervious..

i'll juz shrug it off as I go along.

Oh well..


if only i could shrug of the darn laziness frm my body to study... zz

there u go again...

my friends in action...

gettii really retarded.. hahah

its been interesting. what with whats happening around me.

But now its time to get down to mug boy. MUG like u've never mugged b4 !!


Like thats gonna happen.


So much for self-discipline.

I suck.

darn. deleted my other private blog cuz blogger somehow couldnt keep it private.. just take away the "www." and viola! access to my deepest secrets..


damn... and so, fond memories gone. just like that.

Thanks alot blogger -,-


anyway.. life's been pretty cool this days. "no haven got over the perpetually bad habit of slping late at night. in fact, in gotten worse.. last time it was before 1am.. now its before 2am... zz horrible..

been doing pretty badly in class lately.. not that i don't understand the lectures and content or what (except maths, i totally skipped the whole of vectors), but most of the tutorials are spent by me trying to evade notice from teacher that i dint do my tutorials; and so i end up looking pretty dodgy and all in class... zz not taking anything in sigh.. must really get down to doing those darn tutorials..


that saying.. have 5econs essays due, 2casestudies, 2 lit essays, 3 tutorials and assignments for math, 2 chem tutorials and of course the dammin PW...

oh well anyway, read abit of the book that K lent me, the tao of pooh. yes u havent seen wrong. the TAO of POOH.


yup.

he's right. it's darn interesting to look into tao through the eyes of pooh and his world, with the likes of eeyore and all...

quote K: (in reply of a question of what best describes the word cynicism: "Eeyore.") LOL.. true actually hhaha


anyway.

something really eventful happened today.. usually stuff like this goes directly to my other private blog but since its gone.. oh well..


blown my top. not that i think im totally wrong.

deciding where to eat for so many people is just so damn niggling.. seriously.. halal, finance, preference and not to mentioned no. of seats... living nightmare i tell u..

saying that, any decision making involving where to go or what to do gets really impossible if there are 4 or more people.. (quote LP)... 6 if u have a loud enough mouth. with 20 plus? insane.


so anyway, lesson learnt, don't try to help decide too much, lay back and be a passibe observer. this way, u get to moan, groan and complain, yet u ain the ultimate one who gets the blame.

Oh well. why the incessant rambling. forget it. its over. move on. now off to other topics.

when travelling to the west today.

like woah seriously, call me a bumpkin but its like im going to a foreign country or smthg...


first station. JE.. i stared out of the mrt station. open spaces of grassland. nearest building? so darn far... ( can totally imagine lambs grazing and horses cantering..)

2nd station: bukit batok... passed by lotsa factory outlets. more open space, and finally came to stop at a hill of grassy wilderness..(look the other way she says..) but ah.. the fact remains its the wilderness X)

k anyway, and i cant believe i got lost in westmall trying to find the darn community library. gave up finding after half hr and juz slumped down on those benches at HDB block like those ah peks and juz stoned..


lol im hopeless in the west.. -,- ANYWAY, CREDIT TO A FABULOUS GUIDE FROM THE WEST WHO KINDLY GUIDED ME THROUGH THE MANY NATURE SITES IN THE WILD!!! without her i may have been already eaten up by vicious HDB tigers and perilous fastfood snakes. so yup X)

national day weekend! must get some work done.

ok will.


i hope.. -,-

Conducted today. =D

wont say more =)

anyway, haah thought i'll be nice and promote their video =)



lol presenting... JOEL AND WONGYI!!

i feel fine already =) thanks all for just being there!!


hmm i do recover fast frm moodswings huh...


well, i still do feel sian now and then, but who doesnt?

but one things for sure... IM DAMN TIRED OMG..


my eyebags are starting to show after nearly 3wks of insomnia (dont if i spelt it correctly.. but cant b bothered..)!!!!


argh i need slp... BIG TIME @%&%$@#&%$@#&^%$!!!!!!!!!!!!

tears long dried up.

Realisation hit.


Have to move on.

But.


Will I?

fuck.


first my grandad. I watched him go through the operation. I saw the accursed bits that caused him so much pain. The journey that followed. The falling hair, the weakness, the loss of spirit, the fatigue.

Now my mum.

Came back from practice to find that she has to operate on the damn lump.

Why does it have to be like this?

Life never sucked so much.

A productive day. (i hope)

Early monday morning !!

WEll today's elearning day for a start, and if i dint know myself better, i would be of dota-ing right this moment.

Okay i did. but that was before.

having lesson at 11am!! better start brushing up my rusting playing before mr lim starts #%$&%$!!! me..

Spend your afternoon wisely daniel! U ARE gonna do elearning for once and catch up on some of schwork. AND your PW stuff- GPP and EOM or your grpmates plus tutor will hound ur ass..

That saying i would mostprobably will be dotaing away in the afternoon if not for my father just happening to take a full day leave to stay at home.


(yes i have no discipline, cant work effectively on my own.)

shit okay NO i must do work GRAH!

right so off to do some table whacking and wall smacking (sniggers) with my sticks. TIll then, mug hard people mug hard!!

life's picking up again for me ( and everyone else i hope )

settling down to the pace of life and the fact that promos is 6wks away..


#$^@*(#&#@*^%#*&^!(!~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mugmode dude. mugmode. like now. seriously.
GO!!!!!




(alright off to dota now...)

A tribute to a dear friend.


life may seem horrible.

life may seem meaningless

life may seem unworthy to live for

life may seem futile.

you may think the world has abandoned you,

but the fact that someone's here writing this for you
shows that you can always trust that there will be someone there for you

if i cant help you by giving you sound advice,

I'll listen.

I will.

grounded. the price of shooting your mouth off. great.