stuff happened that sort of dampened my mood quite abit for the rest of the day (not much left though). anyhow, it's kind of depressing.

i know i ought not to look much into it, but i'm guilty, of making judgements and from initial reactions, that i felt really angry at the comments.

may not have meant it that way, but it does certainly came out hurtful with its hidden daggers and all.

z

exactly a wk from now.

wp.

pringletots

darn.

wanted to head down to ccab today to grab some practice hours in the afternoon but camping overnight at pasir ris park seemed to have me pooped out. much.

i think i'm much into microblogging this days. so i guess i'm gonna just do it that form for most of the post on the camp:

1) black specs make every guy look like twins
2) we thought we had an ideal spot, until we woke up the next morning surrounded by aunties doing taiji. oh the hilarity
3) always, always, go out with tkg-ians. or at least, the tkg peeps i know, they seem to be prepared for anything

i.e. tissue.. "i have.. you want wet tissue?"

groundsheet.. "ya i brought 2!"

"oh i also brought bananas, listerine etc."

you get the idea..

compared to

"*hysterical laughter* hahahahah i only brought one set of clothes!! which i'm wearing now!!! *more hysterical laughter"

go figure who's it. haha

yep.

4) really enjoyed the idea of singing in the middle of the night, gathered around in a small circle on the mat with a single guitar.
5) nachos taste fabulous as a pre-breakfast. honest

oh yes. sleeptalking.

apparently while i was aslp, J was suddenly awoken by me bursting into conversation, to no one in particular.

haha 'burst into conversation'
nice.

yep, it's no secret i sleeptalk, and damn, hate it. cause apparently the words that come out your mouth don't pass through that thinmagig in your skull much, so for all you know i could be spilling my deepest secrets. but then again, that hasnt happened yet. i think. i hope -_-

(and yes if i catch anyone of you waiting attentively for me to sleep so that you can record all the jewels falling from my sleeping form through my alimentary orifice, i'll kill you -.- )

that said, at least it's not sleepwalking. which i think is really scary.

but definitely not up to contenders of weird: sleepeating sleep smsing sleep calling sleep dancing sleep-doing-homeworking (though i don't mind the last one seriously.)

yes there Are people who do that fyi.. ok the last one was bull. but the others are true.

~

right.

been flying everywhere meeting with people i'm definitely gonna dearly miss when i enter army. oh, and also the fact that meet-ups with people you havent seen for so long is all the rage now, second to people working ofcourse.

so let's see if i can salvage some of the events that took place from facebook.

band alumni gathering


the group gathering


sec1-2 class gathering


cchs perc alumni gathering


the group gathering ( to see sk's bald head )


band mates at marina barrage


and more recently, camping at pasir ris park with some of the band mates :)


not forgetting the countless little suppers i had with py and sm, the random run to my's house to get her harddisk haha

and the trips back to cchs band down memory lane.

class gathering, going back to mjcsb, cchsmb, dinner with kow, dinner with band peeps, the preNS dinner with the cousins to come.

really hope to be able to meetup with my pri sch mates, but i guess it's kinda impossible since time remaining is practically zilch (or so we'll see, for who knows maybe one day i might be filled with so much fervour to organise another pri sch class gathering hahahahah, but that we'll see)

anyway, really appreciate all these people in my life, coming together from different walks of life, entering my life at different points of time, were the best things that ever happened to me.

you guys own :)

right. there. lengthy post i must say. been awhile. ha

missed teoheng outing with sec1-2 classmates for family dinner. :(

thank goodness there's camping at pasir ris park tonight. muaha.

:D

collected my NS specs.
lol.

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

hahahahahah

oh no :(

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

oh yeah.

funny i would quote something from the Bible

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily
angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.
1st corinthians 13:4-8

ok it's from kow's blog. just thought it interesting.

marina barrage is a real nice place. serious.

family stuff in the morning and afternoon. prolly tenting out somewhere in pasirris tmr night. if things go accordingly as planned in a moment of excitement 2 hours ago.

it'll be cool. hah.

9days.

to run on thursday. i swear

gym made me pooped.

Something About You

Dont what you do to me but
Everytime I'm with you its a natural high
its like re-discovering Eden
with chocolate-coated rainbows and cotton candy skies
And everytime you look my way
I wish i had the guts to say


There's something in your eyes
Something in your smile
Something in the way you move me
You make me want to sing
Make me want to dance
Make me want to cry
I'm falling in love with you.


I think i'll hire Cupid
He'll make you see I'm more than your friend
You'll be tossing and turning
Counting the hours til you see me again
And when we meet you'll
Kiss my hand and say the words I've longed to hear


There's something in your eyes
Something in your smile
Something in the way you move me
You make me want to sing
Make me want to dance
I'm falling in love with you
You make me want to sing
Make me want to dance
Make me want to cry
I'm falling in love with you.

~

okay i thought it was so beautiful, esp when i thought a friend wrote it by herself. and then i realised it was lyrics from corrinne may..

but then it's still beautiful, so yeah, there you go.

mum, dad, and the rest of the world is bugging me to go make my passport. z

11

it's a countdown.

make passport in the morning. gym in the aftn and maybe pool at night.

"one two three four five six seven night"

lol.

Emo.

(okay i just realised it's 2am. how ironic.)

i'm not even a quarter through the book, but it's fantastic enough.

somehow strangely drawn towards the author's style of writing.



the author wrote this book when she was 15 i think.

brilliant. absolutely brilliant.

(Must Read)

/update/

okay i'm done with the book. seriously fabulous read.
i guess how the book captured me was how the stuff that the author writes about.. really hits home with me, and i think many of us. about relationships and stuff.

I feel like I've just cut my chest open and handed Eva my heart. And she's just sitting there, tossing it from one hand to the other, staring at it, trying to figure out what to do with it.

few people are into books much this days, only trendy popular fiction with the likes of S.Meyer and D.Brown, but oh well i just thought i'd mention it. good book.

oh. just a break from normal routine.

music of the day: MUSE.

damn im bored.

another aimless day stuck at home. zz

and, i'm too shagged to go running sheesh. okay i shall do an evening run. just not morning..

(king of procrastination here thankyou)

i. need. to. go. out!!!!!!

okay. tmr. i swear i'm gonna get out of house.

my arms are aching from yesterday. legs, slightly.

that's good. let's just see how long it aches now...

may have to postpone gym to friday.

and,

i'm back to becoming a Bleach junkie, having found a source for the anime :)

you feel real old when you see people like that, and realise they're your age. or even below.

and i havent even mentioned those kpop stars that are all the rage now.

yes. 18, 17, 16 even 15 years.

ah well

there's a limit, even to tolerance

( i really don't get angry easily. but when i do. )


that aside, subway footlong sandwiches are perfect for the hungry stomach.

but it also happens to burn a hole in the pocket along with it :(

yes, anything above 10bucks is . ouch. much so for this week.

total cash left : $30
days before paydayyyy : many T.T

ah well. wondering if my body's gonna ache tmr from the exercise today.

otherwise i'd go jogging tmr morning and gym on thursday.

yes.

in serious need of exercise.

last time i ran was during napfa test for my 2.4 run...

went running this morning. died after a 3km run. considering i walked back the distance i came, it's quite a lot of calories burnt, if thats a plus point.

shit no. calories burnt = weight loss = a big nono.

anyhow, worked out abit at the park. (feeble attempts at completing sets of push ups)

2wks. 2wks!!!!

badminton and swimming tmr morning-afternoon

possibly gym on wednesday.

yes yes.

healthnut ty :)

okay. i realised i'm slowly weaning off my need to be perpetually online.

i dont know if that's a good or bad thing, but it seems that the idea of being cut off from alot of stuff, i'm getting used to it.

but then again, not being connected still does suck sometimes.

the few days have been quite exciting and all.

hung out with my exclassmates(sec1-2) in the aftnoon.

yes we actually decided to go to a museum exhibit. and posed as a certain jc students to get free entry. yes we rock i know.

and headed to city to meet with the pyouth section for dinner. (didnt eat, was tight on cash)

yes you know how strapped for cash i am when i even rejected food. decided to head to supper with the usuals at hougang to satisfy my empty stomach.

overnight mahjong suddenly at G's so cancelled supper. was actually kinda looking forward to supper, it's been long ( a wk? ) thats actually quite long hahah , considering there was a time we used to see one another practically everyday, either for supper or some other thing hahahahah.

yes supper soon! must

anyway mahjong session was still fantastically awesome, though the bit about my dad complaining bout me always(?) not coming home at night when i told him i'm not going home that night really irked me.

really, i want to make full use of the 2wks i have left before i enter the army.

more mahjong sessions? definitely.

gonna be kind of a 'me' day tmr i guess: in other words, nothing planned....

plan to head for a run in the morning, work out at the park, pop by a friend's for some stuffs, catch up on my reading, oh yes maybe hit the library.

and just chill at home.

nice.

alright, time to call 2hao to see if he's free for baddddmiiinnton soon . hahaha

i just have to post it here, saw it from evonne's blog. fabulous.

okay. work's overtime to start making up for lost time.

gym swim run badminton.

hanging out with friends included

2weeks

just when im beginning to love the job, it ends.

damn

been in and out of sleep since friday.

so if you really crunch the numbers, i've been sleeping for.. 39hours.

yep.

those students must really be something.

never been so sick before. for such a long time span.

okay, it also partially lies in how my father appears to have fallen sick first. so i guess he passed the germs to me. and um take into account of the weather..

yep

i'm fine now, i guess. fever didnt exactly broke last night. cause it came back around 1am.

yes i slpt my weekends away. fantastic.

so i have the afternoon to mark/prepare for the week ahead. plspls do not fall sick again the next wkend. the energy bunny within me cannot take it.

fever just broke.

may it not come back in the night

lousy weather

there goes one week of teaching.

one week more and i would have finished my term and (hopefully) finished what i'm supposed to teach my classes.

really sick today. was coughing and all. dizzy spells and weakness, you name it, i've got it.

felt like crap after every single lesson

like, freaking exhausting.

it's actually exhausting enough already. really. talking at a pretty loud volume for a full hour seriously kills your voice.

accidentally opened a door by slamming on the way out of a class and the class thought i was pissed at them. was actually really tired and seriously doors that cant be opened really ought to be torn down.

gave them homework for the weekend, i wonder how many will actually do.

decided to give band a miss today cause i was really running a high fever by then. feel much better now. i think i'm going off to sleep after this. never had more then 5hours of sleep this entire week. cant take it.

right. cca day @ cchms's tmr. hope i'd be well enough to make it.

and cash is running low. Cash from the previous month's job isnt really very sufficient once you factor in transport cost.

Oh. heard that olvl results are releasing on monday. All the best to those taking your results!!

you know what, i'm tired just from typing all this.. i really need my sleep man.

heard from some random teacher that when she went to a clinic for her sore throat, was packed with people who had sore throats, flu and the works..

it's the damned weather..

anyhow, for current cchmsb mates, one of your new bandtchrs in charge is an NIE trumpeter ya know...

alright that was random.

and.

teachers DO gossip.

*walks into the staffrm*

"eh that girl, i think she's with the boy from your class... what's his name? yeahyeah that name"

"how you know???"

"aiyah saw them walking in together this morning la, i think quite awhile already!"

yea you get the idea....

alright. i'm off to sleep, again.

ciao

okay, i'm having a really really bad cough now.

guess it's the combination of strained vocal muscles from teaching (i swear the combined effort of the noisy whirring blades of the fans and the construction going on a stone's are out to destroy my vocal chords)and the really heaty weather nowadays.

amazingly, my whole family seems to have taken ill. dad's high fever just subsided into laying in bed all day, mum is coming down with a fever, with a similar hacking cough to mine.

my granddad seems relatively healthy in comparison.

Ah. but yes it's the weekends!.

i think i'm gonna just not go out on sunday and totally sleep in at home.

average hours slept this week? i guess 5hrs?

seriously doesnt work for me.

speaking of which. stuff to mark and lessons to plan before i sleep.

oh boy, why am i always so last minute.

On Bus 80...

On the way to school now, yes at 6 in the morning. Dad’s fallen sick so he’s’ not going to work. Usually he would be the one who fetches me to school since he’s on his way to work as well. Yes I’m on bus 80 now, literally. Had nothing better to do so I guess I’ll just ramble abit on here. Today’s the fourth day of my ‘teaching career’ and I must say it has been quite an eventful journey. My classes have been great, each of them unique in their own way. Really fun to teach and all. And band, oh boy. Cca recruitment is on Saturday and I really hope something good can come out of it. Looking at sss conduct yesterday, I realized that the absence of our previous conductor, even though weakening the band considerably, still has its underlying potential to be brought out. Go juniors go! J

Oh and I’m hungry. only ate 4ritz biscuits and drank 2 sips of coffee . I think I’m gonna pig on some biscuits when I get to school

Speaking of which. Must start to watch my money. My account balance is starting to drop amazingly low. Have just alil more then a 100 in my account to last me for the rest of 20 ish days before the nation calls for me.

Teaching as a career? Maybe. I get it by how some teachers used to say, it’s not an easy profession, but as long as there are students who are willing to learn, there will be teachers who are willing to teach. The sight of any attentive class waiting to pick up whatever gems you spill from your mouth (chances are which these very gems are stuff you thought of only seconds before you walked into class) is enough to spur teachers to teach on.

Shit my earphons are screwing me up again. One ear is spoilt. And since i’m such a fanatic of good music, a ‘deaf’ right ear simply sucks. Think I’m gonna askkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk okay my k button just fell out so I was repairing the keys. Lousy tablet the sch lent me. Anyway as I was saying. I think I’m gonna borrow yijun, erm I mean, ms kwek’s earpieces when I reach the staffrm later.

It’s gonna be kinda of cool and all later, walking in with the students, as a teacher, into the school, past all that bungalows and such in a 7-ish minute walk, but no longer a student of four years there, just like merely 3years ago. Hahaha. Yep ok I think I’ve typed quite a mouthful. And I’m supposed to preparing lessons on the bus -.- didn’t managed to prepare any last night cause I was stoning away till god knows when.

Alright alright. Shall attempt to do somethingcontructive before I reach my busstop. Ciao…

i'm really questioning a lot of things now

really. really tiring.

shant say much about the 2 classes i took today. both are very different types. cant say which i'd prefer.

it's really interesting teaching a bunch ( a big bunch, for that matter ) of students who are less than half a decade younger than you.

interesting taken both ways. try to figure out what i mean.

went to the band room to listen to my juniors practice their mallet ensemble for tmr. i think it's neat. polished up abit. more effort will make it perfect.

hope they do good.

headed to eastpt to meet up with mayves for dinner and chit chat. i like dinners with small groups of friends or even just one friend. it's real fun just catching up with each other and chilling.

headed down to hougang to meet with sm for a mini supper. same old same old.

yea even though i'm totally pooped, really cherish hanging out with friends and all.

To a better day tmr,

cheers.

first day of school.

- it's weird when the DM lectures about long hair on guys, sloping cuts and no fringes stuff, with the length of my current hair now.

- likewise when my former math teacher introduced me to my fellow colleagues (i.e former teachers) by their first names

- same when they talk about last night's soccer game in very very unteacher-like terms.. erhem.

- weirdly weirdly when some students greet me when i walked past.

guess how i responded: *waves* "hi" with this :D look on my face.

and then i realised it was extremly unteacherlike...

ah well. (mental note to settle for a nod and a smile next time)

now the tough bit comes, teaching in my junior's class.

like. the bunch of 16year olds tmr.

crikey

okay shit i'm so outdated.

i didnt realise james owen sullivan passed away. crappp.

thought he was a freaking insane drummer. not to mention in my all time favourite band.... A7X.. ah shittttttt

okay.
(outdated)

nervous? of course.

but it's kind of fun, really, especially planning lessons for the sec1s.

as for planning lessons for the sec4s.. oh boy, gonna head over to th house in the aftn to borrow his physics textbk.. i really got some reading up to do..

yes it's only for 2 weeks but yea i think it's gonna be either a fantastically hellish 2 weeks or it'll be amazingly fun.

i opt for the latter of course.

heading down to the library to get some books, i predict pretty much nothing to do during my free periods after planning finish my lessons.

lets see.

from 7.30 - 1630 tmr, i only have uh. 1 lesson?

yea you get the idea. but then again thats only for mon and tue. wed - fri gonna be packed.

and let's hope i don't get lost finding the classrooms in my alma mater.

embarrassing much

ugh.

starting work in 2days.

alumni gathering in the evening.

and i think i havent slept enough yet.

Lose control

okay wtf.

zonked out.


That's my new year for you.


ah 2009.

seriously a helluva year.

if i had to sum up this year in a few sentences, like how 2008 was the year where music and the many experiences was really the mainfocus, while coping along with studies, this year was really coming to face with the fact that i'm taking alvls this year and everything else take's backseat. emotional issues as well, lots of it. and the reality of having to put aside the passion for music for the sake of my studies.

academics wise, this was the year where results really plummet for the first half of the year, and i really had to slowly pick my way back up. the serious fear of possibly failing my maths come prelims really made me think deeply of how much one really needs to like the subject to do well. it's really no secret to anyone how much i dislike math and all. but that period of time, madness.

where music is concerned, i think the first half of the year was really great and all, taking part in stuff like AYG and really doing some serious pieces, playing full symphonies with the orchestra as a timpanist. Stuff like hindemeth, 1812 overture, brahms and beethoven symphonies, stuff that i will truly remember years to come. Percussion ensemble woodstock also really made me look through my fundementals and all. in Pyouth, it was also the year where i really started to talk to people which werent from my own section, and really mix around (okay not really, but at least more then the previous year) and also the notion of playing for a heavy concert after only about 4rehs and stuff.. most importantly, it was the year that i played with mj for syf. i would really never forget how we were so familiar with the song that we can sing the whole song out with it's individual parts. really. was also the year where i bonded really close with the band peeps, how we would camp at the study benches everyday after school and when alvl study break came to study from morning till night. day after day. Tough they were, but this moments were the very times that bonded us even more closely together

okay i'm going out to dinner.

will update again. i'm not done yet.. there's seriously

alot.

/updated/

yes i know i said there's alot more. but thinking it thru, some stuff really aint meant to be put down here, more like keeping it all in the head. basically as how i quote from one of my friend's blog: I thought 2009 was the year I grew up the most of all the years I have lived.

ironic it may sound, comparing a single year over the past 17 years, but it all really rings true.

really struggling to cope with music and school, keeping in touch with new friends and old, coming to face with stuff that i have never truly encountered, conflicting thoughts plaguing my mind on issues on almost a daily basis. raging hormones, much. (and dude i'm already 18 i cant believe it) experiencing the realities of death, the loss of someone i can never truly say i have wholly appreciated

yet, new experiences abound, reaching levels of trust with people i know i can truly rely upon, cherishing moments with people who have indeed made an impact on my life, and the little nuggets of love, be it a love for friends, your family, and others.

2009 has indeed been a helluva year.

2010? i truly don't know what is to come.

Resolutions?

Let me get back to you on that.

and to all who have made an impact on me whatsoever in 2009, every single one of you, every single one of you who have made an impact, big or small, you know who you people are, thank you for everything.

Thank you for shaping my 2009 experience. thankyou so much.